Just lately I have encountered life through new eyes. I was drawn to pick up a book as if it were smacking itself across my face saying “look at me bitch, I’m important!” This little gem I will mention, has catapulted me into another state of living. All my life I have searched for answers to the question. “What the fuck is wrong with me?” Just to realize the thought itself was holding me into my own problems.
The book that I am referring to is “You Are a Badass” by Jen Sincero. I have always had an inward feel towards the spiritual in my life but I never found anything that quite spoke to me or solved my damned affliction of constantly being in a state of panicked thought. Everyone shoved “it” in a box or separated “it” as if it was a singular entity and, that never felt right. It never…clicked.
During my constant and never ending journey I have also read books similar to “You Are a Badass” such as: “The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz. Also, a very good book but my attention span; the thing that has given me a lot of issue that is also connected; had caused me to fail in completing the entire book. Jen sums everything up nicely, everything I had always felt to explore further was opened up each time I played her audio book and a tiny sense of peace came over me and I knew I need to read further into this practice.
Since being told “READ ME” and following through, some very…interesting, to say the least things have been happening. I am alive for the most part in the now, my back pain has subsided that I have allowed myself to suffer through for months now, I let out to the universe that I was ready to start living and for the most part, things have magically aligned to give it to me. When I say magically…it’s really just been NUTS but in the best way possible. Like spooky stuff, the kind that gives you goosebumps when you watch it unfold..I am preparing myself to live how I have wanted to live, to help people while simultaneously receiving what it is that I love. I am on the verge of a breakthrough that will turn my life upside-up.
I am still on my journey, but it feels like I am almost home.